somewhat neglected blog

I haven't posted in over a month, that's terrible. I am thinking of Genevive of course, in fact a bit more lately. However, we have had quite a lot going on.....


We are overjoyed, but this does open a whole new set of emotions. The past month has been just holding my breath, waiting for a heartbeat, worrying about my diabetes, worrying about twins again.

Now so far my ultrasounds have only shown one baby, but with the girls the same thing happened until the 4th ultrasound, so I won't feel secure until the baby is a bit bigger. Even if it isn't twins, the risk of a premature birth is still large, both of my pregnancies were premature, and the reason the twins were delivered early was caused by my diabetes which I still have of course.

I think I won't feel secure until this baby is home, eating well, and past the age that NEC strikes. Even then, there is always something that can happen, I hate knowing that....