Thursday, October 7, 2010

Diggin my way out of this hole.

Man, back in a slump! I feel like I am always going up and down, up and down. Now that the headstone is done I am feeling a bit empty. For so long I was working hard on the pamphlet, working hard on getting the headstone. And now all of a sudden it is all accomplished and I have nothing to DO for Genevive. I have to do something, I can't just do nothing, I have tried and I am miserable.

I spoke with our NICU social worker about this just that the other day. She has been a wonderful support during our grief journey. She suggested maybe I could make a little thing to give to parents about making memories. So they have some ideas to go by. That was my original idea when I started my pamphlet, so I do think its a wonderful idea. I have started putting a lot of thought into the best way to approach it.

I also have had a lot of fun sewing lately. I made cloth diapers for Lillian. And I started making some little Preemie size clothes to donate to the NICU this December. This project also has made me feel a bit better.

Oh and I never posted my new tattoo here. It makes me so happy. When I feel like I need to I can look down and see Genevive's actual foot, actual life size. I wish I had done it sooner. It is on the inside of my arm a little below my elbow. My husband has one to match on his upper arm, but no heart, just the foot in the wings so it is more manly, LOL.