Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Chatted about genevive today.

Today I had two doctors appts with an hour and a half wait in between them. I ended up chatting with a woman in the waiting room for a while. I was filling birthdays into my new 2011 planner book and she asked about my book. Every year I get a new photo planner. This is what 2011 looks like:
All my kids are getting huge aren't they! She instantly asked about Genevive up at the top. SO I explained a teeny bit about what happened. And she asked a few questions, it was nice because she didn't come across awkward at all. It was a treat for me, I have been feeling melancholy lately. This time of year sucks, the holidays, the twin's birthday, Genevive's anniversary, it feels like I am going to explode sometimes. But I am still trucking, Just thinking about what I want to do for Genevive this year.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

RIP Kaiya Rae

Shock and awe has knocked me off my feet over the news of Kaiya Rae's death. On her 5 month birthday she passed away suddenly, with no good explanation. I saw her mom post just once in the cloth daipering forum and remember thinking how gorgeous Kaiya was in her siggy.

Whenever I hear of a new Angel it always affects me deeply. In a small way I relive what I went through with my Genevive, and I feel pain for the new grieving parents. It is such an unfair thing.

But every once in a while there is one that really hits home. Reading this mother's posts it is so obvious that she was totally and completely in love with her baby and enjoying motherhood every step of the way. It is so very very unfair that this baby would have to pass, no sickness, no accident, no reason, and no comfort.

And I feel useless, just some stranger across the country reading posts on the internet. I donated the last money I had in my bank account, a whopping $6.50. I feel a bit silly, but at least I tried doing something. I left a message on her facebook as well, and that is all I can do.

I know when Genevive passed away I was moved by the outpouring of support from my online friends. I hope maybe it is bringing some comfort to Kaiya's mom and dad too. I will never forget sweet baby Kaiya.