I have been so preoccupied lately with Lillian. She is having some severe allergy issues and we are working with the allergist and GI to figure out what my poor baby can eat.
I have been thinking about Genevive though. I wonder if she would have had allergies too? I don't think so, she was a good eater and she loved to eat. Lily struggled with eating from day 1 in the NICU. At one point I was worried because genevive was eating the breastmilk just as fast as I could pump it, and I was afraid there would be none for Lillian when she started feeds.
In the grieving world I made a huge accomplishment recently. Since a few months after genevive's death I had the idea to make a pamphlet for parents losing a baby. I felt so lost that day, I knew I wanted to do stuff, but had no idea what to do. I have been jotting down notes and brainstorms and ideas as they come to me. Well I was asked to speak at the hospital about our loss. What helped what didn't, things like that. So I took all my notes and made a pamphlet for the nurses and doctors on how to help guide us through that day. It went awesome. The hospital media center printed and cut and stapled it for me. The meeting was fantastic, people asked a lot of questions, and I got an awesome response about the pamphlet. SO I will be refining it a bit, and distributing copies to other hospitals. It is very satisfying to me, that Genevive's death can help other people. Then at least I know some good came out of it.