Well her anniversary has passed. I woke up pretty bummed.
I posted this on facebook (and got some lovely replies): 2 years ago today I lost a piece of my heart. It sounds like so long ago, but it feels like it was just yesterday. How do I go on when a piece of my heart is elsewhere for all eternity? Rest in peace my sweet baby, this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.
I started writing the story of the 14th, which I will finish later on. My sister Pauline called me up and sang that "I just called to say I love you song". And she asked if I wanted to go to the store with her. I was going to make an excuse not to go, but she said I thought we could look for something for Genevive's shelf. Boy did that make me feel good.
SO I got dressed, we went out to a restaurant for lunch. We talked a lot about our childhood, and about the day Genevive passed away, and some of our NICU experience. And a lot about Genevive in general. Then we went to our favorite store and bought a bunch of stuff for the kids. But didn't find anything that really popped for Genevive. SO we went to get the kids from school, but found out my husband already picked them up, LMAO.
Then we decided to go back out, we returned to our favorite store (Savers btw) and they had new stuff out, and we found an awesome huge purple candle. So we got that for Genevive. and we got more stuff for the kids. And then we went to Shaw's to get stuff for my nieces bday party. She totally spoiled me, and kept me distracted, without forgetting Genevive. It was perfect and I am so grateful.
My other sister Mel didn't call, and I worried she forgot, but she posted this on facebook:
Let me see if I can find a photo I haven't posted yet. I tend to always post my favorite ones over and over. How about one from when she was 2 days old, since this is her 2nd anniversary. 2 days old, she was taken off the ventilator and I held her for the first time!
She was so content being held, but not to happy about being put back!
And she ended up under the bili lights as well. But she got her binky, she loved her binkies!OK, I couldn't pick just one!