Saturday, January 22, 2011

I am missing Genevive today.

So lets go find some photos!

OK, here are some I haven't shared before. When Genevive passed away, we spent the whole day with her, I think we gave her back around 9pm. But even with all that time, I felt like I wasn't ready. It nagged at me and nagged at me. Finally after working up the courage, a few days later I called the social worker and told her how I was feeling, and asked if I could go see her in the morgue. She said I could come in and see her, but she didn't think it was a good idea for me to go to the morgue.

So they found some clothes and brought her to the hospital meditation room for me. This little sneak visit really helped me find some peace. I am not sure what it was, I guess I needed to see that she was ok. And it was wonderful to see how she looked after her autopsy to prepare me for when I got her dressed at the funeral home. She was very cold, but she looked so much better than when we left her. I was so full of Joy when I saw that, I even contemplated having an open casket at the funeral.

Here she is shortly before she passed away.

And here she was a few days later. The clothes were a bit big, LOL.
And here is her lucky mother, happy to be able to steal a few more precious moments with my baby.


Michele said...

Beautiful :) Thank you for sharing these precious memories with us.

KnottedFingers said...

Breathtaking photos <3 Thank you for sharing them with us Jen

Catherine W said...

Beautiful Genevive. Thank you for sharing her pictures and I'm glad you got that final sneaky visit together. xo

Brittanie said...

Just wanted to let you know I'm reading and thinking of you and Genevieve. ((hugs))

Cecilia Mastropietro said...

I think it is amazing and wonderful that they allowed you to see her at the hospital after she'd passed, and were thoughtful in making it a warm experience, instead of you going to the morgue. I imagine that they are very understanding and willing to do whatever they can to help the grieving parents deal with/accept the loss of their child.

wtfizzle said...

What does that mean? "here is HER mother with MY baby"... WHO is the mother? The woman in the photo holding your dead baby? Why is she holding it if it's YOURS? and how is it yours if she is the mother? Did you adopt it? So you adopted it and had it for what a few months before it died? Or are you referring to yourself in the first and third person sense in the same sentence? Are you schizophreornic or something? That would make sense given the fact you are posting pictures of a woman holding a dead baby on the internet, you are psycho as fu#k.