Wednesday, August 24, 2011

kind of a sad day

Today my wallet was so full of cards I couldn't zip it closed anymore. SO I had to clean it out. One of the things that went was Genevive's health insurance cards. I have been carrying them in my wallet for two and a half years after her death.

It is odd the little things that we hold onto. I admit I went back and forth until reason told me, why in the world am I still carrying them around. So they now live safely in her memory boxes with everything else.

And now I feel sad, like another doorway is closed between her and I. She is gone, it is not like the cards are going to change that, but sometimes I am angry life goes on. Maybe I should have just left them alone.

1 comment:

Brittanie said...

I feel the same way sometimes. Life just keeps pushing us forward and we have no choice but to move further and further away from where we were with our babies. (hugs)