Thursday, May 28, 2009


Today I have spent a lot of time thinking about Genevive. The more time passes the more panicked I get. The more I worry I will forget a detail, the farther away from her I feel. The stronger the urge to do something is. I don't want her life to be a waste. I would like her death to make a difference somehow, but how? I have wracked my brain, I have tried so hard to think of something! I still don't know what to do about her first anniversary. The one thing that fits is a butterfly release, but we can't because she passed in the winter. Life is very unfair. it shouldn't be this hard.

How beautiful is this baby.....

1 comment:

Jessica said...

I gave birth to triplets 3 months early as well and lost one of my daughters. She also passed away while in the NICU and much about our stories sound so similar. It has been a year and a half for us now and for that first year I was always in fear of moving too far away from the short time I had with her. As time goes on though you will feel her with you always and know that she lives on through everyone who knew her and especially through her surviving sister. Take care, I know that this is all so difficult.