I had counseling today, YAY. And again I got the med push. She is unhappy I am not medicated for depression. I feel that depression for no good reason needs medication. Depression from the sudden devastating death of your infant is appropriate.
I feel like my grief and the things I do because of my grief is all I can do for genevive now. I want to feel it and think of her, even though it is painful. I choose not to medicate and cover it up. These things need to be worked through, that is the bottom line, I wish people would respect that. Who cares if I have a hard day and miss her and cry all day in bed. I deserve that every so often, I still take care of Lillian, I still do things that need to be done, I just allow myself a break.